Monday, November 7, 2011

I Brought You In & I Will Take You Out

Martia’ Holloway
October 31, 2011
Nonfiction I
Essay #6

Pure white walls, a very well waxed floor, two chairs, a bed, one window, one small television mounted on the wall, and about six people standing around. As one lay in the bed, eating crushed ice in a very cold room. There was a mother, a father, a first cousin, a “baby daddy,” a daughter, and a sister. I know it was February 18, 2003 at 2:35 in the afternoon. I can remember this, because I was there and I remember. I can recall this.

The daughter lay in the bed with so much pain in her eyes, and every few minutes she would move and squirm around saying, “Mommy, I can’t do this it hurts so badly.” The mommy would reply, “You have to do this, we’re all here for you. The baby is coming whether you’re ready or not.” The baby daddy stood alongside the bed of his baby mother, not really knowing how to sooth her or even how to be a father. I was there too; I was the sister who I spoke about in the beginning. I was about seventeen years old and I wanted to know everything about having a baby and seeing my niece come into the world.

I didn’t stand alongside the bed; I paced the room asking my sister, “Are you okay? Does it hurt? Can you feel anything? What’s the ice for?” I continued to ask for the next few hours, because I didn’t know a woman could lie in a bed, eating crushed ice, and being mean to everyone just because she chose to have a baby. I was inquisitive and I was soon, no more like later about to find out. It quickly went from 2:38 in the afternoon to 5:00 in the evening. The cousin was restless, the father was scared, and the baby daddy was lost.

A nurse would often come into the room, pull back the blue curtain, ask everyone to leave but my mother, the baby daddy, and myself. I guess because we were the ones who would be staying for the actual birth of the baby. The nurse, in her plastic shoes, and light blue smocks reached into the drawer for a glove. She would ask the baby mother a series of questions, way more complicated than the ones I asked. With that gloved hand, she put a clear cream on and shoved her hand right in my sister’s virgin. “You’re dilated about four centimeters.” I don’t remember the exact measurements, because I’ve never been any good at math.

2:38 pm, 5:00 pm, and now 7:00 pm and still no baby in sight. The mother sat in the chair, the cousin in the waiting room with his friend who arrived to keep him company, the baby daddy sat in another chair that he drug over to left side of the bed. The father sat on the heater in the labor and delivery room, the sister (myself) still pacing. Still wondering, “What the hell was taking so long and what in the hell is an epidural?” The daughter sat up, bent over, and held on to the arm of her baby daddy as the nurse inserted the needle. Whatever that shit was, the daughter turned into someone very heavy medicated in about thirty minutes or what seemed like thirty minutes to me.

7:00 pm, 8:00 pm, 9:00 pm, 10:00 pm and still nothing. We were all restless and I had asked the same questions about a million times, but my sister just kept giving me the evil eye. The nurse came in about one hundred times and each time she violated my sister. Finally the nurse said, “You are dilated ten centimeters.” Everyone jumped up, rearranged their seats, and prepared themselves. I didn’t I continued to pace the room until I realized something big was about to happen. I looked up at the clock which had just struck midnight. The nurse cleared the room except for; me, the mother, and the baby daddy. My father said, “Got to go, I can’t stand this.”

The doctor came into the room and gave out orders as if he had been the one waiting for hours. The baby daddy and a nurse held my sisters legs back, I stood right in front of the hole waiting to see what was going to happen and what was going to come out. My sister began to push and push and push. Until finally I could see a head I yelled out over top of others screaming, “You can do this.” But, I had the best view so I yelled, “Kara I can see the head, omg!” Just as I said that the doctor reached for the emergency button. He said the baby was in distress.

I watched as they twisted and turned the head of the baby and her blood pressure dropped, the umbilical cord was around her neck. Once they pulled her out she wasn’t crying or moving. Then eventually she cried. They took her away instantly, washed her, and dressed her in the hospital fashion baby attire and handed her off. Pierce Deas was born at 4:38 am on February 19, 2003.

I know it seems like I skipped a whole piece of information and why the baby was in distress? I don’t know though, because no one said anything to us they just moved around quickly. The doctor and nurses only interacted with each other and finally a baby came out.

All I know is now I see why my mom says, “I brought you into this world and I will take you out.” She probably had to lie in a bed, eating crushed ice, and being mean. 

I Too Wore a Letter across My Chest

Martia’ Holloway
October 16, 2011
Nonfiction I
Essay # 4

I bore a letter across my chest like; Hester wore her A in the Scarlett Letter. However, the letter I wore wasn't an A, nor was it B or C, and not even D. This letter ruined my life and some of the best relationships I have ever encountered. It wasn’t E, or F. This letter was in the beginning of the alphabet and not so much the end. This was my letter to symbolize something far greater than the A, Hester wore with grace. I couldn’t take pride in my letter, and I dare not wear it across my chest. It wasn’t the letter P, because I had forgotten how to pray. It wasn’t the letter G, because I had lost that close relationship with God.
                                                                        The Scarlett Letter is the story of Hester Prynne, who conceives a daughter through an adulterous affair and struggles to create a new life of Repentance and dignity. Throughout the book, Hawthorne explores themes of legalism, sin, and guilt.
I struggle with my letter to find someone who will accept it, someone who will love me no matter what. Or am I like Hester and my only options are; to wear this letter with pride, to love me, and to find dignity in myself no matter what letter I own.
Question:
What if we all had to wear a letter that told the truth about us or who we were?
A is for Adultery
B is for Babies
C is for Currency
D is for Death
E is for Economy
F is for Failure
Failure, something I feared like Death, something that meant so much in my life, but it wasn't my letter. I can't bear to tell the world and its only one place I feel this letter would be okay. Climb through my ears, walk about a mile and you will be in this place. Once inside, it will be really dark and hollow, so remember to bring your flash light. Watch out for all the words passing by, those are just my thoughts, and when I’m really angry you’ll hear a loud noise; that’s me yelling inside my head when I’ve had enough.
                                                                                                                        Answer:
                                                                                                            Some of us would be hiding!
Explore every inch of my mind, because that’s the only way you’ll know exactly who I ‘am or what I’m feeling. You’ll see the letter I’m talking about, but it will be in word form instead of one letter. It will scare the shit out of you, but don’t run out the other side, please don’t. I’ve had enough of that. Just try to understand me and what I’m thinking. We all have sinned, and we all have suffered the consequence of sins.
Sin: any act regarded as such a transgression, especially a willful or deliberate violation of some religious or moral principle.    
I was suffering this consequence of my own sins. But it wasn’t the letter C, K, or the letter L, not even M or N. It wasn’t at the end of the alphabet or the beginning, maybe not quite the middle either.
K is for Kill
L is for Love (if you believe in that)
M is for Many
N is for Nigga (the slang way)
                                                                                                            Questions: What is Love?
Is love the reason Hester wore the A, is love the reason why she committed the A? Isn’t it ironic that my letter causes people who love me, to never accept that part of me? L is for love, but also lust, loser, last, and late. All the things we associate with being horrible.  
                                                                                                Answer: Who honestly know the truth?
Inside this place, you will hear music (cover your ears); those are the songs I love. You will see regrets, accomplishments, and fears. All the things I chose not to speak, nor wear across my chest. Or is it that way only to me? While inside this place, you will see who I’ am as a person, my sins, my likes, and dislikes, you will see my letter.
It’s not Z, Q, or S.
Z is for Zoo (that’s what this world is)
Q is for Quitter (which I will never do)
S is for Sorry (I only apologize)
Dignity: bearing, conduct, or speech indicative of self-respect or appreciation of the formality or gravity of an occasion or situation.
Listen, I bore a letter across my chest like Scarlett wore her A; however I didn’t wear my letter literally, just wore the scars.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Micheal Jackson and The Media

Micheal Jackson and The Media
“To you Michael is an icon, but to us he is family”, said Janet Jackson at the 2009 BET awards. Michael Jackson passed away June 25, 2009 from an overdose to the lethal ejection propofol, mostly used in surgery settings. But it could be said that Jackson died long before then, that his soul had been taken from him by; the media, close friends, and even his fans.
Now you can find yourself listening to Jackson’s greatest hits and remembering the times, literally. However it’s also easy to forget just what Michael Jackson meant to African Americans in music, to children growing up singing, and to people struggling all across the country.
Though it’s easily forgotten that Jackson was the first African American to have a video aired on MTV, it’s easy to forget that he’s in the genesis book of world records for being the most charitable artist, and that regardless of his fame he opened his home to kids to enjoy what he didn’t have as a child.
But why is it so hard to forget? Well the media made it hard, because all you saw was the bad; from calling him wacko-jacko to saying Jackson was even gay. You saw his skin changing, but were never told why it changed; only that Michael Jackson wanted to be white. You saw his nose changing, his body so frail and skinny, and him being portrayed as a monster in his molestation trials.
Allegations were made against Jackson, yet he was acquitted of all charges. Jackson faced serious allegations of child abuse; though Jackson always stated, he was innocent. A multimillion dollar settlement was reached in the first case in 1993, and Jackson was found not guilty in a trial which mocked the judicial system in 2005.
But in a way those trials seriously hurt Jackson, think about it. What if Michael really just wanted to give kids what he never had, what if he wanted his fans to see him at his BEST and when fans turned their backs, he lost what made him who he was… the beloved Michael who was a smooth criminal and left blood on any dance floor.
Many felt he had been convicted in the court of public opinion. In a 1995 interview, Jackson told ABC's Diane Sawyer, “It just isn't fair what they put me through. There isn't one piece of information that says that I did this -- nothing, nothing, nothing."
Is too much media coverage a problem? Well that’s a question most can answer themselves.
Michael grew up in a way many of us will never understand. A note to the media you can’t forget that the celebrities you are reporting on are still human and even though they say words don’t hurt, we all know they can. At some point too much media coverage on one individual or case can cause viewers to form certain opinions, you know like agenda setting.
To fans think about having your life full of cameras and you never get to find who you are because as a child you were denied the chance, and as an adult you have so many expectations to live up to; like always trying to the best, the greatest, the king.
To doctors who treat celebrities think about it like this; in a way you kind of have the power to save a life or end one. When will you stop giving celebrities medicine? When will you tell a celebrity NO, this will kill you. Is money really the deciding factor in who doctors save or who they watch vanish right before their eyes?
The world saw a memorial put on by AEG, the company sponsoring Michael’s concert tours. But is the world letting the king of pop rest in peace? There’s a difference between honoring a life of great legacy and high lightening what made him JACKO. And like Janet Jackson said, he’s a member of their family, he’s more than an icon; he’s the greatest entertainer to ever live, and may he rest in peace.

Life as a Model

 The life of a model… Since 2006, I have coined myself as America’s Next Top Model, because the dream of winning the hit reality show was first on my mind and for the last four years I have tried out for over four seasons.

If you have ever seen me then you know, I’m 5’7, about 115 pounds, and my legs are almost 80 percent of my body. Well my name is Martia’ Holloway, and I’m going to take you on a journey where few I have made it.

If you have ever seen ANTM, then you know exactly how it feels to be a model, and just exactly how hard it is to be on top. Well modeling is nothing really like that at all, it’s more intense and you receive a lot more criticism on the way you look and the way you walk.

In 2004, I went to a model call for a agency in Virginia and they told me that in order to model I must lose 20 more pounds and at that time I was already 110 pounds, so I gave up.
Then in 2005, I did my first hair show, for Isoy Hair Couture, and the show was produced by; Diva Dolls Incorporated, our theme was a tribute to New Orleans. I stepped on the runway palms sweaty and body shaking, then my music queue came on; “show me what got lil mama, show me what you got lil lady, hands up now wave.” And I took off strutting down the runway, looking side to side at everyone in the building; I placed my right hand on my hips then my left hand on my hip. By that moment I was at the end of the runway and struck the meanest pose ever, turned off and strutted back down the runway.

From that moment on you couldn’t tell me nothing, that was until, the summer of 2006 when I tried out for season nine of America’s Next Top model, I had slept outside the venue where tryouts were being held. That morning at about 8a.m I woke up brush my teeth with toothpaste and a water bottle, and got dressed in the car. I stood in line for almost six hours, when my number was finally called. “Hello number 29, step up and please allow our assistant to measure you,” said a representative from UPN.

I was so excited; my heart was racing so fast I could hear it through my chest. “Number 29, is 5’6 ¾, we’re sorry, but you must be at least 5’7.” I didn’t know for sure if I had heard him right, because the room suddenly got quiet and I froze in place, but that didn’t stop the tears and agony I felt hearing those words. That stopped me for a few months, I became very depressed, but I continued to do hair shows and to rip the runway for Isoy Hair Couture.

However after that moment I continued to try out for ANTM, and my last stop was the tryout for 5’6 and under, however since I haven’t gotten a call so, I didn’t make it. But do I give up or keep strutting until someone says, “hey you, you have what it takes to be on top, show me what you got.”

Thursday, September 22, 2011

READ IT, OR LOSE IT!!!!


Today in my writing for New Media class we discussed what it takes to be a “great” writer or what it takes to be great at anything. Truth is though you don’t have to be great anymore, if you are great chances are you’ll make it, but then there’s that slim chance that you will be over looked by the already successful or the person who has the look.  
Don’t take what I’m saying to literal, but for example look at famous singers, most of the females can’t sing live at all, but they have the look so they made it. You want to be a writer, but you have the hardest time getting published and you’re angry because your books are written well, but individuals rather read Kim Kardashians book instead.
That raises the notation, what is being good anymore, because in today’s society you don’t have to be good, or the best you just have to market yourself like hell, make videos on YouTube, and self publish your work.

Has technology made us dumb? Do we rely on facebook and twitter to inform us on “news” worthy information? I think we have, we are all guilty of reading less important content and skimming through significant content.
Though, my friends from home want to support my dream as a writer, I also understand that they probably barely read my blog or scan it, I should just put bits and pieces on twitter at a time since I have over seven hundred followers. Or should I make a note on facebook and tag who I want to read with hopes all three thousand of my friends will be interested. Nope, better yet I’ll make a video blog and just provide the information in a video so you don’t have to read at all.
Bill Cosby said, “If you want to hide something from a nigger put it in a book.” It’s no longer the African American community who doesn’t read, it’s our whole society. It’s extended from younger generations and reached older generations as well. We are reading less and tweeting more. You can Google just about anything and find information, photos, or videos for it. You can buy essays and read books on line so just burn paperbacks.
Regardless, you never want to lose the essence of what made our society an educated people. And, if it’s no longer cool to be educated, call me a lame.  Just because you don’t have to be “great” anymore doesn’t mean you lower your standards as a writer (grammar), musicians (auto-tone), and artist; well art will always be the same you can’t fake a picture.
Save our society, our generation’s young and old, and save your mind. Read something with extensive content, which has meaning, and maybe even provokes you to do something. Children can’t grow up wondering what paperbacks are, because they have a kindle or a device that reads the book to them.

Sparks Notes, thank you because a few times you helped me through high school, however I can’t hold a proper conversation on the true subject matter of the book now.
I’m not judging anyone I’m just expressing my frustrations on what being “good” or being “great” actually is, no I’m hoping you will realize that you have become a slave to modern day technology and forgot to use your brain.

So I will continue to read, write, and blog. And, maybe in a last minute effort to be great I’ll self publish a book. I mean the outlets are out there to do whatever, unless you want to be great, then you’ll use those outlets wisely.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

BasketBall Wives LA

Ok! Since everyone is saying it, it's about time we made it KNOWN! The new Basketball Wives LA sucks... We can only put up with the original Basketball Wives, because we as viewers have grown to love them and their drama and Evelyn with her sayings keeps us entertained.

Oh yeah, and at least their husbands, boyfriends, baby daddys, or ex husbands were known. The LA Wives we don’t know them or who the hell their husbands are. @governorking said, “Basketball Wives LA is the reason we should all read more.” By we, he means African Americans, especially women.

LA #BBW cause their own drama and find ways to beef it's not real at all. It's too scripted, Gloria Govan is the new Shaunie and she’s the leader of the pack, her sister is just on there for publicity, because we know she had sexual relations with Shaq (Shaunie making that money) and she had to bring her sister along. I don’t even know anyone else’s name and haven’t taken them time to learn them either.

Laura Govan said, “She’s been though a lot. She’s just had a baby, moved a crossed country, had a public break up with someone famous, and dated a celebrity.” That is not a hard life girl, shit that’s easy talk to some of the baby mommas I know, or females who really had a hard life.

The "jump-off girl" (Draya Michele )needs to stand up to them and tell them, "they are all groupies because they are all making a living off of their husband's name and living off their basketball money too. So she's no different from them, they either had a ring or have one or not."  

@ZetaNoLyeBeta tweeted, “It’s rather boring, but that Draya girl makes for good entertainment. LOL.”  Good point, the one they hate may be the one to steal the show, maybe she will get promoted to the original #BBW and take Meeka “Liar” Claxton’s place.

Viewers are not feeling these LA wives and they aren't afraid to voice it just look a twitter and facebook. @Dial_Is_Taken thinks, “I thought the last #BBW was ghetto, but the LA ones are terrible, they look terrible, and their behavior is terrible. It’s all bad.”
Shaunie I understand you needed a spin off or some air time while the original #BBWS was off season, but this is not the way to go about it, how about getting a show with women who want to be basketball wives more people would tune into that, matter of fact we would watch anything but #BBWLA!

They are always saying it’s so hard to be a #BBW; shit it’s hard being anybodies wife, girlfriend, or baby momma. All men cheat and females are thirsty and are always out to get someone else’s man. It’s not just famous rich men; a female will go after a fine broke nigga. Keep it real.
Shit, I should be on there since I have a crush on Shannon Brown… 


Closing One Chapter & Opening Another

Graduate School
As I start a new journey in life, it’s only right that as a journalist I close one chapter by writing and open another chapter with insight on what I hope to gain from the voyage this time around. I have a chance to get my Masters, a chance that doesn’t come often and yes the loan money will be a pain paying back, but I’m securing my future.
I can kill two birds with one stone, not literally. Yet, I can go to school and go where the opportunity is as well.  I’ve been waiting for this moment for a while and all though it comes premature; I’m risking it all just to get a shot, one shot. If I learned one thing from undergraduate, I learned that internships are important and that’s my first task.
I want my mom to know she raised a wonderful daughter and my family to know, “our time is coming.” Believe that, our time is defiantly coming, so get ready our lives are about to change.
I will be okay mom, I got faith, I got family, and I got three of the best friends in the world (S.W, J.B, & M.H).  As long as I remember to have faith and pray (something I need to work on) then I shall be fine. I have drive and dreams and that’s enough to push anybody.  I have a plan too.
Just pray for me, encourage me, and believe in me and that’s enough. I will though miss you guys while I’m there, but it’s for a good cause. I will be leaving behind some of the most important people in my life, but that doesn’t mean I don't care about them and love them all the same; be good “Weeza Weeza”, S. LEE thanks for everything you do for me, I <3 you, and M. Rather (Riley) love you BFF…
-Martia’
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Thursday, August 4, 2011

Dear V.A.

I've spent the last year of my life in the same state that four years ago I promised myself that I would NEVER return to, however since life is so unexpected I had to break that promise after college. I've been so angry all my life at Virginia because she failed to give me the city life I crave for, she stepped on my dreams, and she turned her back on my future.

V.A is a place to settle and always has been since; 1776 and it fails to offer  big dreamers a place to launch their dreams into reality. It's about promoting the already successful and pushing back the ones pressing forward. I've been angry at V.A. because nothing comes from here, nothing is started here, and nothing is here...

I've become unhappy and settled in a life that I know isn't for me, the curse of V.A. has struck and I'm scared I'm stuck. After sitting in my room for the last two hours thinking of my next plan to leave, someone said something to me.  He said, "just because nothing comes from here, doesn't mean you can't be the first to start it."

But, when people see VA they automatically think the country side with fields and hills; not glamour, heels, and city life because that's not what it has to offer. I could change the dynamic of my state, or I could turn my back on her as she has done to us... Do I stay here and fight to put VA on the map or do I make it and be like other famous individuals from here and never state what my State has done for me...

So I was researching and found that the motto of VA is, "Sic Semper Tyrannis." Which means, "Thus is always Tyrants." And "Tyrants means; "a sovereign or other ruler who uses power oppressively or unjustly." Now, what type of motto is that for a state in a Democracy?

The symbol is a woman standing on a man's neck, which is suppose to mean; The two figures are acting out the meaning of the motto. Both are dressed as warriors. The woman, Virtue, represents Virginia. The man holding a scourge and chain shows that he is a tyrant. His fallen crown is nearby.

The woman is standing on the man's neck and the man is "tyrant" and has fallen to the woman, but that makes no since at all. Because if the man is "tyrant" and has fallen to the woman then why is our motto centered around the definition of being a 'tyrant"? I don't get it? Do you?

So can one really blame me from running from the same state, that made me a product of my environment, not in the literal sense. I hate VA, I hate what it has done to my friends and my family. It has given girls my age nothing to look forward but babies and baby daddies, and the government supporting their lifestyle.  I hate that it has over looked violence, because they were looking for drugs which in turn buried my friends at an early age.

I hate that my friends are stuck , and believe this is all that life has to offer? I hate that my friends gave up! One can say that I should blame my friends, but they blame themselves enough. V.A. you only have enough to offer the already successful, and nothing to offer the trying to become a success.

Dear, V.A.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Martia.I.Write: I "Chose" to help out .... #ChooseLife

Martia.I.Write: I "Chose" to help out .... #ChooseLife: "This past weekend I volunteered to help out my good friend Davon Barton with his, 'Live Fast, Die Young... I Choose Life' campaign. Barton h..."

I "Chose" to help out .... #ChooseLife

This past weekend I volunteered to help out my good friend Davon Barton with his, "Live Fast, Die Young... I Choose Life" campaign. Barton had arranged for a table to be set up at the 3rd Annual Stop The Violence Tournament. The purpose was to bring awareness to individuals about his foundation, that was started after four guys from our city died in a car crash that could have possibly been avoided.

I decided to help my friend, because he was out of town promoting #ChooseLife in North Carolina, so it was an honor when I first received the call from Barton that he wanted me to head the table. I think it was due to the passion I felt about losing friends and saving the ones I had left.

Barton wants to help younger generations make smarter decisions to prolong their lives, but I became aware this weekend that not only does he need to reach out to younger generations, but to the older ones as well.

As the event kicked off I met with several young men, some who came over to the table just because a pretty face sat there, others who wanted to know what the heck was #ChooseLife. Some thought it was a great idea and donated money and purchased a shirt with the saying on it.

Yet, I was shocked when some males came to the table making statements like; "I like living fast and I'm not dead yet." Or, "What's wrong with living life in the fast lane?" Better yet, "I'm young, I got to live fast, I got time."

Now who came up with this living fast idea, and are they still alive? When did it become popular to live fast, and die young? Yes, you can live fast and make it to see an older age, but does that mean you truly appreciated all that life had to offer?

Or did you forget to slow down and realize what was most important....

I'm not one to tell anyone how to live their lives, but I'm one to keep it real, so I will tell you....

That living fast, gets you no where and helps you understand nothing. It's going to be hard for Barton to change the mindset of a city like, Newport News where violence is the teacher and death is the test. See, I have had my days of living fast, but I can barely remember them, that's exactly how fast they were.

What does it take to change a city like Newport News? See, Barton can travel all across the country promoting #ChooseLife, but if he can't save the lives in his own city, then has he failed? ...

I just want you all to understand that this cause is bigger then the four guys we lost, it's bigger then our city, and it's bigger then ourselves, but if you can't be bigger then living fast, you will surely die young and if you have lived a long life fast, then you died a long time ago. You died a long time ago, because you didn't appreciate anything life had to offer so you were already dead.

The only thing promised in our lives is death, the only thing free is life....

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Being Homeless... Is One Thing...


“Being homeless is one thing, but if you don’t have your morals and respect, then you’re not shit,” said Sal. Sal has been homeless for 2 years and although some would see two years as twelve, Sal knows that he’s fine, because of the relationship he has with God. He often tells people, “me and my buddy are fine,” referring to God.  
Sal is a 62 year old white male, from Rochester, New York where he worked for 23 years as a truck driver. After so many years of service in the truck driving industry, Sal was laid off and sent to find another way. During his time as a driver Sal married and remained married for 28 years of his life. The two had a son and eventually a daughter, and then came along the many grandchildren. Sal’s love of his life died suddenly from breast cancer.
However, the lost of Sal’s wife wasn’t the destruction of his life, but it played a major role and how he sees life now as a homeless man. “I’m fine, I’m okay, I feel bad for the people walking the streets, that bump into one another and never turn to say excuse me.” “For the homeless teenagers, where are their parents, they have so many opportunities, and educations is key,” said Sal speaking of how he feels about being homeless.
There are 6,000 plus homeless individuals in Charlotte, most being males. Yet, with this alarming number you would think that all the shelters in Charlotte would be way over crowded. “Shelters aren’t as safe as they use to be, they would search us for drugs, weapons, and made sure we weren’t violent toward one another,” said Sal. Charlotte recently merged the Emergency Winter Shelter and the Uptown Shelter and formed, the Men of Charlotte Shelter.
Once the two shelters had emerged they then became more laxed. Sal while talking can remember a time when it was safe to be in the shelters, “now they have gotten slack and they don’t care as much about outside drugs, weapons, and violence,” Sal stated as he reminisced on his days of living in a Charlotte.
“Charlotte has long struggled to provide enough emergency shelter for men to meet the growing demands. A few months ago, the Men’s Shelter of Charlotte declared our intention to meet this growing need by providing 500 beds of shelter year round (Men’s Shelter of Charlotte).”
Direct Connect Charlotte, knows that there is a growing amount of homeless individuals in Charlotte, and has decided to take a stand on the cause. DCCharlotte is a non-profit organizations whose sole purpose is to, to be a catalyst for the homeless and those involved in serving the homeless, or interested in becoming involved, can freely come to find information, facts, tools, and statistics.
DCCharlotte wants to take the hassle out of communication by providing a free service for those serving the homeless to connect quickly and easily to others. Without the city's organizations, groups, and individuals, DCCharlotte would not exist (Direct Connection Charlotte).”
Sal sees all these things as helpful to homeless people; however Sal doesn’t go looking for a helping hand, he could live with his children, stay in a shelter in Charlotte, but as Sal has stated, “I’m fine.” Being homeless for Sal gives him time to reflect on the things others would normally take for granted, he sees the world as it really is and not just for the moment, and Sal cherishes the many struggles throughout the day that he encounters.
One would see being homeless as a crisis, but Sal sees it as, “no job is certain and the streets are no joke,” said Sal.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Heels, Heels, & More Heels


It’s 6 a.m. and there are at least 100 people waiting in line for the doors of a sneaker shoe store to open. Yes, you got it! They are all waiting for the new shipment of air Jordan’s to arrive, and as the shoes are handed to the customer you can see their eyes light up. They have just paid over $175 dollars for a pair of sneakers that come out every year.
On the other hand there are those who get a high off of wearing high heels; you can purchase almost four pairs of heels for $175. I’m one of those people who owns only four pairs of sneakers and more than 40 pairs of heels. I’ve been wearing stilettos since 10th grade in high school and I haven’t stopped since. Now I’m a junior at Johnson C. Smith University.
Stilettos allow you to stand out from the crowd and walk differently, like a model on the runway. The infamous question is, “Do they hurt?” the answer is, yes, they hurt like heck and sometimes my feet even go numb. With that said, its only right that I enlighten the students of Johnson c. Smith University on the history behind those high stepping stilettos.
Stiletto heels first appeared in the 1800s and they were used to increase the height of women and men. You heard right. Men wore stiletto heels in the 1800s to seem taller than they actually were. Overtime stilettos shifted from a height fetish item, and became associated with things that were deemed erotic.
Stilettos faded in the 1960s, because the pressure to produce such shoes became too much and supplies for the heel of the stiletto became hard to come by. However they reappeared in 1974, by a man named Manolo Blanhnik, who dubbed the new heel of the shoes, a needle. The needle became popular and was referred to as the needle high heel.
But it wasn’t long before the needle disappeared and the stiletto came back, although in the 1990s the stiletto heel faded again because of the new invention of the thick school girl high heels. The school girl look only lasted for about 10 years; the stiletto resurfaced in 2000 and became a major must have shoe.
Stilettos give an optical illusion of longer, slimmer leg, a smaller foot, and greater height. They also alter your posture, flex your calf muscles, and make the bust and buttocks more prominent. There are some disadvantages to wearing such high heels. The heel of the stiletto transmits a large amount of force into a small area of the foot causing pain.
Ultimately this can ruin your feet and have lasting effects for years to come. Stiletto heels are here to stay. The fashion world has adopted them by storm and some of the biggest names in fashion have some of the baddest heels in their lineup. Stiletto heels give you a rush and that extra pump in your stride. They make you feel dangerous, so can you handle whatever pressure that comes your way?

Politics Vs. Talent


Politics Vs. talent some would say is a no brainer as to which of the two would win that battle. Yet, we all know politics effect everything around us from; our jobs, households, to where ever money is involved. So it shouldn’t surprise you that money and politics runs all the way down to high school sports and the recruiting process for college athletes.
 I often wonder if we could call college recruiters, “drug dealers in suits”. Selling you a dream and promising you so much, giving you so much without telling you that this life style could come to a halt immediately after college.
Others argue that given this chance you should work hard enough to secure your spot, but what happens when politics beats talent, even when talent works hard? In 2004 and 2005 Woodside High School won back to back State Championships, with some of the best talent this city had to offer.
After digging through my high school numbers, I was able to track down the Daily Press Player of the year in 2005, Calvin Bake. Along with the domination of all-state and all-district team member Stefan Welsh, and Willie Bell, all three which were members of that winning squad both years.
Bell seems to understand what the game of basketball is about, but he also understands the opportunity he was given as well. “Politics runs everything in basketball it’s all about who you know,” Bell said, when asked which weighed more.
 Looking back at his high school and college career as a basketball player one can only wonder what happened, but Bell remains optimistic. “I don’t regret anything towards my career. I got everything I wanted out of it, a free education, and it allowed me to coach basketball,” said Bell.
Baker feels the same way about his education, his high school, and college career even after transferring from William and Mary College to the University of Virginia. “I don’t regret anything either, once you get to a certain level politics holds more. Everything is about money, and once money is involved, who cares about talent,” Baker said. Calvin appreciates his free education and is also looking at becoming a coach as well in the near future.
Stefan Welsh some would say has the best chance out of the three of them, but with a college coach who sometimes didn’t understand welsh’s style of play things seem to have went astray. Welsh even played in Israel and Canada after college and while in Canada had one heck of a game where he scored 25 points.
Welsh stated he looks back on Woodside and Boo Williams AAU as some of his most memorable and fondest moments in basketball. “I appreciate more than the game; I appreciate the discipline, the hard work, and my teammates. I got a free education as well, most people never win a championship and we’ve won two back to back before we were even 18 years old,” said Welsh.
“I believe politics plays a major role, either you have the votes or you don’t. I still believe hard work beats talent, when talent doesn’t work hard and although there’s politics, I’m never going to give up,” said Welsh speaking about his career.


Bell now works for the government and also coaches junior varsity basketball at Denbigh High School. He says his own basketball career is out of the question, but he loves coaching and he does it every day. “I love coaching and that’s what I want to do for the rest of my life,” said Bell.
Welsh on the other hands believe hard work pays off. “I rather not speak on what tomorrow may bring, but I’ve fought through the politics of basketball all my life, and this time isn’t different,” said Welsh. He’s currently in Virginia working out and will soon be making a major move, stay tuned.
“I may become a coach, but I’m not ruling out my own career just waiting for a chance, the right chance. I can’t change the politicking, I can only over come it,” said Baker. He also resides in Virginia as well and  is currently looking into coaching.
Three very young men all on another course due to the politics and money in this sport, the same sport that once promised so much hope for a better life then the one they grew up in. Politics or talent, we see it for ourselves in almost every sport and life aspect.

Monday, June 27, 2011

R.I.P Fantastic Four... A legacy, that will continue...



For the past few months, I have been
trying to figure out just what happened on Friday, April 16, 2011; what went
wrong and what were their last moments like? Yet, all I get is questions and no
answers and I won’t ever get those answers because no one is around to tell
me...





There are some people who still
aren’t aware of this tragic situation, so before I began my story let me
enlighten you. On April 16, 2011 Clarance Hill the driver of a 2000 Lincoln
proceeded down interstate 64 eastbound driving at what witnesses described at
100 miles per hour. Along for the ride were his good friends; Brian “Swerv”
Herrmann, Jarrell Rainey, and Terrell Cherry, reports say Hill lost control of
the car, went into a slide, ran into a ditch, and hit a tree.





Killing Hill and Cherry at the scene,
Herrmann died early Saturday(17) at Sentara Norfolk General Hospital and Rainey
on Sunday(18) surrounded by his family and friends.





It was “horrific”, not because I saw
the accident first hand, But due to the affect it had on myself, my city, and
most of all my friends. See, some of these guys closet friends, were my closet
friends and I got to see the impact it had on them emotionally and physically.





April 16 changed my life forever, I
know everyone dies, but for some reason I never thought it would come a time
where four guys I knew; would die in a car crash, speeding… yes, it happens,
but not to “Swerv”, not to Clarance, and not to guys who are just starting
their lives. They were in the midst of their primes. It leaves me wondering, if
that had even crossed their minds.





I feel as though after death we all
change for a moment and then after time passes we’re back to living normal
lives and cherishing everyday right? Though, for me this time it’s different,
something is different about this time and this situation, something is
different in the minds of our young people, and something is different about my
city.





I entered the funeral home in
Williamsburg almost a week after the accident, and when I saw Brian “Swerv”
laying there I instantly thought, “oh, God how is Mrs. Herrmann dealing with
this and will she ever be okay again?” She loved him and he was her world, and
my next thought was; “Did Brian consider his mom, team mates, and friends
before they drove down 64 speeding?” I said to my friend, “this isn’t right, this
isn’t fair, that’s little “Swerv” right there, and he isn’t supposed to be dead
right now or ever.”





That Friday, which marked a week
came fast I don’t think any of us were aware that this tragic incident had hit
its week mark, but I did.


And on that day I entered another
funeral home to visit my high school friend Clarance Hill.








When I got to the door a woman said,
“Are you here to see Mr. Hill?” 


I just nodded and proceeded to view
my friend for the last time. I looked over him and he was as handsome as I
remember, he looked good in blue, but then I looked around at all my friends
from high school, shaking their heads in disbelief and crying.





As I stood there, I went into deep
thought; “Clarance would always hit me up on facebook chat, “when you come home
for a break from college, make sure you hit me up, I miss yall mane.” And I
would always respond back, “Okay, I will.”





Then a few months would pass and he
would hit me up saying, “for real and I’m proud of you for sticking it out
“crazy Martia’.”





I don’t ever remember if I told him
I loved him or thank you for pushing me through, I don’t remember if I told him
I was proud of him, but I do remember not hitting him up when I returned to
Virginia.





Just because I was too busy, but
time is of the essence and I thought I had all the time in the world.





Standing
there I was brought back to reality realizing, not one, but three guys I knew
were gone and one I had never met, but the pain filled my body and I left.
Driving all the way home in tears.


By Sunday, facebook and twitter were
over flowed with messages to the fantastic four, and still two months later
individuals are shaken up over what has occurred.  Two months later and nothing about this
situation had gotten any easier, it’s like we all had just found out yesterday.





But, as long as the accident
remained in the minds of my friends, that meant they would be more careful and
really see how short life can be.





Swerv’s motto was, “Cherish
Everyday” however cherishing everyday goes beyond drinking, being at every party,
and being seen everywhere you go, it’s about having fun, ceasing every
opportunity, and never forgetting that whatever you do make sure you live to
talk about it.





A good friend of mine and some of
yours as well, began a blog after this situation occurred, “Live Fast, Die
Young, #IChooseLife.





The words he writes has helped me
cope with this to an extent, however it’s up to me to cherish everyday and
decide will we let our lives go back to normal until we have to lay to rest our
next young black man, or will we speak out along side Davon, and choose life.





When Swerv talks about cherishing
every day, he was talking about really appreciating what life has to offer,
taking advantage of opportunity, and remembering to hug more, laugh more, and
be more grateful of life because before you know it, that life can be over.





Our
city is in mourning and we are forever changed, this is a tragedy; one that
some of us will only see once in a lifetime… Think about that for a moment…


While they lived their lives to the fullest,
and touched so many lives, we must never forget to slow down and take a minute
to enjoy the smaller things in life, the things we often take for granted.





I don’t want to continue attending
funerals for young black men who I’ve known for years.





I don’t want to continue reading
about it in the news, I don’t want to continue to see it on television; I want
you guys to wake up and SEE it for yourself; and choose life.





No matter what you’re doing or where
you’re going we all have to slow down and cherish every day, every minute,
every second, and everything.





I will support Davon in his choose
life campaign, and I will never forget the individuals lost that day or days
before that.





Rest
in Peace…


Brian
“Swerv” Herrmann


Clarance
Hill


Jarrell
Rainey


Terrell Cherry





Rason S. Mitchell





Javon “J Roc” Johnson





Joe Miller





Tommie “Black” Canty, Jr.





Shawn Williams





Tyrell Ward





Chris Johnson





Robert “Coop” Cooper





Ryan Richards





Choose life, understand what it
means to cherish every day, they left their mark, where will you leave yours?





Hardwork beats talent when, talent
doesn't work hard." This is the slogan Stefan Welsh has decided to live by in
his young life.

Since Welsh can remember he has always
been an athlete. He started his career as a football player playing for the
Yorktown Patriots, his home town little league team. It was then that his own city
realized a talent was among them and was about to break
loose.






And breaking loose is exactly
what he did. Welsh was born and raised in Newport News, Virginia, he was born to
Yolanda Welsh and Troy Swinton.


Under any other circumstance Stefan wouldn't mention
his dad, but in a story about your life and a ticket to stardom one must visit
their past in order to appreciate their presence.


When
asked sports fans often differ whether they believe Welsh was better at football
or basketball. Some would say Welsh's chances at stardom are better on the
football field as quarter back, others say his point guard skills and jump shot
are his key to success. However Welsh took his skills to the basketball court in
high school winning back to back State Championships in 2004 and
20005.


He was being heavily recruited and decided to choose Arkansas Razorbacks as
his choice to make a career. After the recruiting coach decided to leave Coach
John Palfrey came
in and single-handily changed basketball at the
University of Arkansas. Stefan Welsh stuck it out as long as possible and made
some major decisions in his life.


With that said
college coaches recurit players and promise them the dream of a lifetime to play
Division 1 college basketball and finally land a career in the NBA. What happens
when that dream is slightly changed, when the hardworks no longer matters, when
popularity beats talents. when true talent and hardwork doesn't even
matter.


What happen in the 2010 NBA draft, who were
those guys? Can real talent be over looked due to politics? Standing in the mist
of the game, I myself can say that some talent does go over looked, but thats
the motivation to keep pushing to work that much more
harder.


Stefan Welsh has a dream and the only way to
wake up is to make that dream a reality. Welsh says, "I won't stop here and
nothing will ever stop me from working hard to beat a
"talent."


This isn't the last of a hardworking talent,
he will prevail... This blog is just the beggining of following true talent on a
road only few will ever travel.
If you can't be real with yourself, then who can you be real with? As a
journalist, it's your job to be as real as possible. In 2010 a lot happened, a lot changed, and history
was made yet again. There are several things I want to address. After going over
many questions in my head, I decided to ask..

Why was Micheal Vick ripped to shreds for
dog-fighting? When Ben Roethlisberger rapped yet another girl again
this year, and he sat out two games. In my opinion, Vick took all his wrongs and
made them right. He showed the world the type of individuals the 'ghetto"
raised... Survivors.

Barack Obama became the 1st black president in
history on paper,
the 2 nd black
president in history. It's honestly not that Obama is doing a bad job, he's just black
and that's bad enough. How can you expect a human to fix all the wrongs in one
term. You don't, but because he's black this is his only shot.

I can
continue to be real right?

Why do we allow our daugther's to believe what Kim Kardashian does is right? Is the only way to
stardom literally on the bottom; on your back? How many times will we show her
chasing a new athlete?

Why doesn't Pheadra just say that baby isn't her
husbands... Enough Said...

Why have we stopped raising money for Haiti
and New Orleans, yet we're raising money for PETA? Why are we fighting a war to
save another country from what they believe? Who are we to strip someone of
their Divine Rights and beliefs, because it doesn't seem right to us? Someone
may think what we do in America isn't right, but their not over here bombing us.
Why are we fighting to save others, whose going to save us?

Okay, stay
with me...

Michael Phelps smoked some weed, never mind the fact that he's won 16 Olympic medals, and
totally dominated the Olympics as well. He's young, young people
smoke weed. he's human, let him live. He isn't cheating, taking steroids, or
abusing women... He's swimming and smoking.

Miley Cyrus... drugs What did you expect'
Disney turns sugar into shit every time they get their hands on a child
star. it's not being a young celebrity they can't handle. it's the not being
able to be young and make mistakes. Kids have to make mistakes to become
adults.

Disney stop turning kids out...

Reggie Bush, by the way go
get your Heisman Trophy back. Taking gifts has nothing to do with
what you did on the field from pure talent. Most athletes have never experienced what
stardom brings, if you give someone who started with nothing a gift, he's going
to take it. Penalize the people giving the
gifts.

16 and Pregnant is not a chance at a reality show, it's a reality
check. it shouldn't be flaunted around all over t.v.
16 year old girls sleeping at their parents house with 18 and up guys... it's
sad, pitiful, and a shame. Just be real about life after having a baby at 16.
Then you show, "Teen Mom". I know a 16 year old girl whose story after having a
baby is nothing like what MTV shows.

So let's reward you with stardom and
interviews for having a baby at 16.

And why are Terrance and Rosci still hosting 106
and park? BET, I'll wait for an answer...

Oprah honestly, do you like
being black?

Kim house wife of Atlanta stop singing please, and dancing.
Khandi, how dare you
allow her to make a mockery of you and the art.

Nancy Grace and Monique
stop yelling at the camera. Monique get a mic, it's hard to watch your show
because you yell too damn much, Nancy stop trying people in the court of
public opinion.

Wendy Williams is a mess, she reads off her cue cards, doesn't
have good speaking skills, and you as viewers embrace and entertain ignorance.

Why
do we pay taxes on cars that are paid in full? If I pay my car payment, plus
taxes, then when my car becomes paid off, why am I still paying taxes? It's paid
for.

Why are teachers allowed to degrade children using words that they
can't understand?

When did we become such a violent society' Martin Luther King Jr and
Gandhi fought
without violence. However, we as a society solve every issue that way. War is the
prime example.

As blacks we are not free, we are told we can have one
month to celebrate a lifetime of achievements. If BET stands for Black
Entertainment Television, why are they becoming MTV Part 2?

Why should
someone who doesn't have kids get majority of their check taken? Yes, you get it
back, but why should someone who chose not to have kids pay for the government
to take care of lazy
women who have kids, but don't want to work. The system...

Macy's department
store in 2011, stop following black people around your store. racist asses.